I don’t know how to move on

So B came over last night and we ordered a pizza, rented a movie and got a lot of snacks.  For the first time in a long time, B brought over a bottle of whiskey and I bought him a 6 pack of beer.  I should have known that there was something he needed to get off of his chest...during the movie, B said....”I just want to make sure we are both on the same page here...this is just a friendship”.  I admit I started to cry...I could give a ton of very reasonable explanations why...but in the end and at the root, was my hope coming crashing down.  The worst part was when he suggested a friend of his who he said was really nice...I told him that although I appreciated the suggestion, my heart had not really budged and it would be unfair for me to try to date anyone.  Overall...we expressed love and care towards each other.  He apologized for hurting me...I told him it was not his fault...that I am responsible for myself.

My head and heart are so torn and divided and I feel numb and frozen.