Post by hayls1994 on Sept 18, 2019 12:18:51 GMT
Yeah, exactly! It's not actually wanting everything to end, it's wanting the pain and anxiety to stop, because I just can't tolerate it and the way it feels anymore. The anxiety revolving around my relationship is much worse than it is in any other area of my life, it really is. 
Yeah, I've mentioned the suicidal thoughts to my therapist, but I just don't feel she understands how bad it is, she says that just because I don't actually have a plan to end my life that it's not serious. Of course it would be an actual emergency if I was attempting to end my life, but it's bad enough having the thoughts and not caring whether my life ends or not.
And I agree with you entirely, that I need more support in addition to posting on here, and seeing this therapist who seems to only be concerned for my social anxiety.
I have seen the doctor about it, and they told me to contact the place I have my therapy sessions at, and arrange to see a doctor there and see if they can offer more support regarding the anxious attachment problem, and it seems I already have an upcoming appointment with them to see how everything is going, so I'm thinking of mentioning it to them when I go to the appointment, see what they say and can do.
I'm going to try my best to do as you've suggested; be kind and patient with myself, and not telling myself what I should be feeling or doing, and keep on practicing balancing my thoughts, and working on emotionally supporting myself.
Thank you so much for understanding me, listening to me, and for all the advice you've given me! it's really meant a lot and helped more than I can express!
Yeah, I've mentioned the suicidal thoughts to my therapist, but I just don't feel she understands how bad it is, she says that just because I don't actually have a plan to end my life that it's not serious. Of course it would be an actual emergency if I was attempting to end my life, but it's bad enough having the thoughts and not caring whether my life ends or not.
And I agree with you entirely, that I need more support in addition to posting on here, and seeing this therapist who seems to only be concerned for my social anxiety.
I have seen the doctor about it, and they told me to contact the place I have my therapy sessions at, and arrange to see a doctor there and see if they can offer more support regarding the anxious attachment problem, and it seems I already have an upcoming appointment with them to see how everything is going, so I'm thinking of mentioning it to them when I go to the appointment, see what they say and can do.I'm going to try my best to do as you've suggested; be kind and patient with myself, and not telling myself what I should be feeling or doing, and keep on practicing balancing my thoughts, and working on emotionally supporting myself.
Thank you so much for understanding me, listening to me, and for all the advice you've given me! it's really meant a lot and helped more than I can express!
