Hello I'm AP and have been most of my adult life. I'm glad I found this forum since it's hard to talk about this with my friends, they don't really understand. I feel so depleted lately. I'm going through a withdrawal from an avoidant and it means I need to be alone again. Which I can do for awhile but then boredom sets in and I get tired of things being too calm. Does anyone else relate? I just realized that I go back to bad behaviors all the time because of boredom. Looking forward to talking with people who understand.
Welcome gemini! Just so you know, these "support for" channels are much less frequented than the general "AP" boards which is probably why this has been silent.
I can absolutely relate to this! It can be why it might be so hard to walk away from these insecure dynamics. Are you getting any sort of help with your insecure attachment? You might want to post this in the general thread to get more responses but I am sure that many many people can relate
Thank you so much for the response. Yes I am getting great help right now but I still have a lot of lonely days especially during this time where people aren’t gathering as much. That’s when I want a fix or high to make me feel alive and I’ll go towards the avoidant to try to get some attention even if it’s hard to get, it’s something for me to focus on besides my loneliness.