What lacks..the scarcity model

I love how these bards get me thinking.....early in my therapy....my therapist was trying to assess my family background and she asked if anything had happened to me...to be honest, I couldn't remember anything from my childhood but I do remember feeling a whole lot of "lack".  There was this permeating feeling of "Not enough"...not enough time, not enough money, not enough love to go around, not enough empathy or patience or laughter (everything felt serious and immediate and dire)...just a huge amount of scarcity.  I see now how that scarcity model has influenced my spending, my use of time and my relationships....there has been this nawing sense of scarcity in all my romantic relationships.  I need to head to bed but want to expand on this tomorrow.