Healing Disorganized (FA) attatchment sty/ chock-trauma ect.

Sophie comes into my clinic, she only walks on her toes and carries a pillow, which she holds on to in her arms..

This is a young woman whose story includes multiple sexual abuses, severe childhood trauma.

She is quiet, beautiful and surveys my room in a nice and quiet way.
Orientation is the most important thing as well as creating trust between us.
We sit down and look out into my garden, while I calmly say that we should not go all in and talk about the difficult things, she has been through. I only have to have to get the the bigger picture, as her body remembers what has happened.
Her posture clearly expresses collapse, which is completely natural.

I am looking for resources, that can open her nervous system and ease her tension.
She especially remembers a teacher from her school - a smile comes to her face and she occasionally looks at me. I've said it's so nice we don't have to look at each other, as I know it's far too difficult with eye contact, which she confirms immediately).

We work with her feet, look at them and talk about how it is natural for them to be afraid.

Our session ends outside in the garden, where she is allowed to show me around to the places, she wants to visit and feel. Her voice rises and she straightens up as we walk around. She looks for a long time at my garden pavilion, where there are plants, we go inside - she blooms even more, color comes to her cheeks and she says, she has a sensory garden where she lives, which she spends many hours in.

At the end of the session, I say, that she has a fantastic body that knows just what she needs, so that she can return home and dare to feel her body again.
That Silence is a resource and a depth and not something wrong.

I also send a link to some music that can heal the inner child. : youtu.be/oqCSynvh4hU

I am so looking forward to seeing her again, such a beautiful person who, despite adversity, has not chosen to leave this world.

An SE, attachment, touch worker

5 Good advice to go from insecure to secure attachment

Protect the good contact and let the relationship become stronger than the problems

1. Know your 'push away' defense mechanisms
What do you do when you become afraid of close contact with your partner and seek distance?
Examples: Waiting to make joint agreements, postpones planning.
Avoids talking about topics that create emotional closeness.
Gets a cooler body language or a sharper tone of voice.
Uses words that say: “I can do without you. Our bond doesn't mean that much to me.”

Understand the meaning behind your tendency to distance yourself
As a small child, you are typically influenced by an insecure relationship with father or mother or both parents, or you have experienced neglect by others. It has affected your understanding of what it means to be in a relationship. Your unconscious script for your love life (known in research as an internal working model) has therefore been characterized by negative expectations for yourself, your partner and the relationship. The brain can convert these experiences and negative expectations into 'rules': 'If a happens, then b also happens, and then I must do c', e.g. if my boyfriend gets really close (a), then I will be very hurt (b), and before that happens I protect myself and get away in advance (c).

IMPORTANT POINT: YOU AND YOUR PARTNER WILL BECOME STRONGER TOGETHER WHEN YOU CAN RECOGNIZE, UNDERSTAND AND BREAK THE NEGATIVE ABC SEQUENCES THAT TRIGGER YOUR DISTANCE

2. Share your vulnerability and invite your partner closer You benefit from distinguishing between the reactive and sincere parts of yourself: 1. Reactive feelings, thoughts and actions that defend you against being reminded of past pain. When you suddenly feel irritated, cold, or empty inside while distancing yourself from your partner, it may be the old defense mechanisms that are keeping you from listening to the deeper and vulnerable feelings that lie within. IF YOU 'CULTIVATE' THE REACTIVE SIDES OF YOUR FEELINGS, THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS, YOU STAY ON THE OUTSIDE OF YOURSELF, AND YOU CREATE A MORE SUPERFICIAL RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARTNER. In this way, the pain from the past will more easily grow in you - and disrupt your relationship.

- 2. Sincere needs and primal feelings, which show your real needs and your vulnerability You open up the depths of the contact if you can say to your partner: "Outwardly I seem cold right now, but inside I'm very afraid of being hurt, that's why I'm talking to you like this. I'm sorry. I really need you to hold me.” WHEN YOU SHARE YOUR VULNERABILITY AND EXPRESS YOUR SINCERE NEEDS BEHIND THE DEFENSE MECHANISMS, YOU INVITE TOGETHERNESS, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. In this way, the blood in the brain will be able to start flowing in new patterns - and the old rules can be replaced with new ones. You and your partner want to 'reach each other' and your brain now gets a new rule, for example: "When I get scared of getting close to my partner, I have to try anyway, and then we will be happier together, because I make it easier for my partner to understand and help me.'

- 3.Learn to understand and deal with the disorganized moments A DISORGANIZED MOMENT INCLUDES I.A. CHARACTERIZED BY:

1. that something in the present (it can sometimes be a very small thing) in a split second reminds you of something in the past that was very difficult. The great pain you have experienced earlier in your life suddenly comes to life. Your partner may think: why so much emotion over such a small thing?

2. that the brain lacks a strategy – the brain will neither allow you to have your partner close nor distance yourself. When the brain's compass needle 'goes black' in this way, you can experience an inner abyss of negative emotions, which is connected to the brain being 'disorganized and disoriented'.

3. that there is a beginning, a peak and an end. When the difficult feelings 'fade away', it can sometimes be that you slip into other kinds of difficult situations. Other times, you may go completely out of the painful situation and experience: "I lost myself just before, now I have become myself again."

CREATE CORRECTING AND HEALING MOMENTS TOGETHER. When love, togetherness, respect and security are part of your close relationships, you heal your unconscious inner expectations of what it's like to be in a close relationship:

create a common language that disarms:
when the pain from the past is brought to life, you and your partner can recognize it:
“here comes the way into the fire. Let's go another way.” Or "Now the storm is coming, let's secure our tent" etc.

Separate the past from the present "this is not about us being a bad match, but about the past hurting.'

You can both understand that it is about the past - and that the old patterns should preferably not break into the present.
You can normalize and dramatize. You can choose new reaction patterns. Eg. can you say “I don't cover my dissatisfaction  until I explode. Instead, I talk openly and respectfully about my needs.”

In a relationship with mutual respect, the good contact between you will be able to heal the old pain. Instead of expecting failure, wounds and pain, you will gradually be able to start expecting cohesion, joy and security - because you get concrete experience that it can be done.

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF IN YOUR RELATIONSHIPS

If you are in a relationship where you encounter a lack of understanding, love and support, you will benefit from developing the relationship in a safe direction, possibly via couples counseling.Difficulties in a relationship are always rooted in past experiences. Each partner does his/her best, but does not always have the easiest conditions. At the same time, look for other relationships with friends and family where you feel safe and understood.

4. Prioritize time for inner peace - and steer clear of stress
Stress can reinforce the negative reaction patterns that belong to the disorganized pattern – ​​and tone down the parts of you where you feel, think and act in a safe way. You and/or your partner may therefore feel: precisely when we are most challenged, your reactions also become a challenge - which adds even more fuel to the fire. Take responsibility for the vulnerability that shows up when your nervous system is stressed. Don't just think of it as special sensitivity that you and your partner have to accept. Instead, see it as a hypersensitivity that is conditioned by overload and adversity earlier in life. And which you and your partner have to learn to take care of so that it is cured as much as possible

Plan time for breaks, quiet, reflection and rest. Set aside time each day for your nervous system to calm down. Remember that you, as a sensitive, will be even more deeply affected by the wounds of the past - and understand that self-care will strengthen you, and that you, as a sensitive, will also be even more strongly positively affected by the good things you do here and now to create change. Be a problem solver. Life is full of challenges, problems, mistakes and difficulties. Instead of sinking into disappointment with yourself and others, you can focus on finding and creating solutions. Take one problem at a time and focus on what can be done - instead of mixing all problems together and give up.

5. Work on letting go of the past, being present in the present and opening up to the future
An image of how the disorganized states can come again and again is if an icy winter comes:
1. the heat is turned up very high, 2. more energy is used, 3. you wear warmer clothes, 4. some days you snowed in and can't get out of your home. During that period, you develop a behavior that suits very cold weather.
Then it's finally spring and summer, the weather is warmer, but you keep turning up the heat and putting on woolen cloves. Holding on to the old defense mechanisms, where the brain was overloaded and without a strategy, is equivalent to "keeping the cloves on, even though it's no longer cold." In reality, it is possible to release the old pain, change behavior and give your brain a strategy it can follow.

1. It is more difficult to let go of the past if your partner's behavior and reaction patterns trigger insecurity - Does your partner's behavior in some ways remind you of the behavior that once led to failure and hurt in you? Then it is naturally more challenging to create change. If appropriate, you and your partner can benefit from couple talks.

2. Dwell on it when the atmosphere between you is actually better and more secure than what you have previously experienced. The brain has a thinking layer which often quickly recognizes the difference. But the feeling in the heart (feeling brain) and the sensation in the stomach (sensory brain) should preferably also be activated. In this way, you get a deeper healing and feeling of: "now it's different, now I can be safe."

3. Have joint plans and visions for the future that clearly remind you of new and secure values. Conversations, inner reflections and visualization can help you point the compass needle in a new direction. A healthy and safe direction, which is no longer based on the anxiety of the past - but instead comes from positive feelings in the present and positive expectations for the future.

A HSP coach and attatchment coach

This is fascinating, thanks for sharing!