Why block me?

i think people do all kinds of things after a breakup that to them , symbolize a clean break, a letting go, creating an emotional moat, etc.
especially anyone who suffers from attachment injury.
breakups are hard, and people do what they feel they need to do for themselves in order to move on and feel better.
you didn't want to be friends, he blocked you, both of you have your boundaries and have to adjust to moving on with no contact.
it sucks but that's how breakups are, if two people agreed how to go about it that would be rare, i think.

i know what you mean, i really do.
i have grief because i made a very difficult choice to end my relationship with my partner because a terrible ongoing crisis in his life truly rendered him unable to continue the way we were, it's a tragic situation i won't go into but sticking it out would have been a huge emotional compromise with no end in sight, it's an unusual situation but one that we couldn't navigate.
its been sad, but i knew it was the best thing to do, to let go.
we've recently had contact, and i felt sentimental and sad, even while knowing that things cannot be different.
things are warm between us, but i cannot continue casual contact at this point, because i am not fully healed.  i cannot forget my feelings, good and bad.  i grew so much with him and hoped for a different outcome. things larger than us got in the way. 

so, i have chosen to not be available to the contact, and will choose my steps accordingly, to avoid run ins, etc.
this is because it is a kind of emotional backtracking to revisit what cannot be changed.  it isn't that i wouldn't enjoy talking with him and connecting on some level, but it would be fool's play to pretend i am at that point.  i need time and healing to take place before i could have a new normal with him. it is a grief process. 

and so, i focus on my internal work, my projects, my aspirations and endeavors that are prominent in my life.  the way forward is.... forward, not back. 

letting go is a process ❤️