Post by renodakota on Sept 12, 2018 0:15:54 GMT
My romantic interest is most likely fearful avoidant. We met online (what are the odds?? J/k I’ve read and I know they’re high) and have been in contact every day for 4 months, except for a few times that I went no contact. The first time I did this he chatted me something obviously meant for another window and blamed it on being tired. He eventually partially confessed and since it was only a few week in at the time I laid down some ground rules..initiating phone contact and using my name more and regular phone texting as opposed to KIK. He did oblige these requests intermittently for a while. The next time he said he wanted to start as friends first( we are 3ish months in at this point and already friends...) so that hit me wrong and I went NC for 3 days. He texted every day during this time and when I eventually let him explain because I was curious as to why he restarted his online dating profile and changed the wants to everything he liked about me, he said it was because we are long distance. So fine we resume. We talk usually via KiK for many hours a night. A few other times have cropped up where a message seems like it could be for someone else and by Sunday I’d had enough. We’d already been in contact that day and he knew what I’d been doing and asked what I did Sunday. He immediately unleashed texts when I didn’t respond much after telling him that it seemed like it was meant for someone else. He has done this before and I presume he is making sure that I haven’t blocked/ghosted him. Throughout this time I have expressed feelings and I get almost robotic responses from him with the occasional admittance if feeling emotionally bonded to me. I have a secure attachment style but he makes me feel like I dip into anxious at times. So Sunday night my final response was that i think he is so special and I want an intimacy that is fostered by exclusivity. I feel that at four months this isn’t much to ask and I, in a positive and not accusing way, asked him to not contact me again unless he wants to explore something with me exclusively. He has respected that, and didn’t defend the accusation that he is still chatting multiple women and may have additional dating profiles. I am on a journey that involves valuing myself and expecting to be valued at my perceived worth by my partners and I didn’t feel good knowing I was on some chat carousel when we’ve had some very intense conversations. While I know it is right for me I am so sad because I am very emotionally invested in him and would love a relationship with him. I’m also worried that he will convolute this in his mind as another romantic rejection and as that is a major fear of his I don’t want that to happen either. Advice? Did I handle this correctly? I feel like there could be that skeleton meme that says “ me waiting for...and the rest of it would read “a response from him”. Not that I’m waiting...I’ve already lined up a coffee date with someone that I know locally who I friend-zoned during this time, because I am only able to concentrate on one person romantically at a time.