Post by mistakes on Jan 29, 2019 7:36:34 GMT
Its been a while since I post, first of all, thanks all for helping me nearly a year ago.
The FA ex and I met last night, it was a surprise for me, he suddenly texted me in the morning to ask for meeting up last night. I fail to keep the boundaries that I told myself to keep, but this time, I managed to keep all insecurities to myself.
We have not text each other since he left the door. I’m angry with myself for letting us be intimate, I feel miserable: before receiving his message, I thought I lost him forever, I’ve been trying to move on, I grow from being codependent, but I missed him. Now that he is back, I see how much I’ve progress on not needing him to settle my insecurities, it kind of fix the regret I used to have, but now I taste that, one-sided growth is not going to make the relationship work...
I feel stuck, I guess the standard answer is I need to move on again, but I can’t just supress my longing for him, which I know it’s only from my anxious attachment...
Please let me know what I can do to pull myself out?
The FA ex and I met last night, it was a surprise for me, he suddenly texted me in the morning to ask for meeting up last night. I fail to keep the boundaries that I told myself to keep, but this time, I managed to keep all insecurities to myself.
We have not text each other since he left the door. I’m angry with myself for letting us be intimate, I feel miserable: before receiving his message, I thought I lost him forever, I’ve been trying to move on, I grow from being codependent, but I missed him. Now that he is back, I see how much I’ve progress on not needing him to settle my insecurities, it kind of fix the regret I used to have, but now I taste that, one-sided growth is not going to make the relationship work...
I feel stuck, I guess the standard answer is I need to move on again, but I can’t just supress my longing for him, which I know it’s only from my anxious attachment...
Please let me know what I can do to pull myself out?
