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Post by epicgum on Feb 16, 2019 18:39:25 GMT
Often when someone raises their hand at me, even just to wave, I flinch as though they are going to hit me. I just noticed this the other day when getting on the ferry and giving my ticket to the ticket man, and it happened several timed when my gf would raise a hand and I would flinch and back away expecting that she was going to hit me. (She never did, although she hit the bed and joked about hitting me once.)
Can other FA's corroborate this?
Any idea what kind of meditations/treatments could help me with this?
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Post by leavethelighton on Feb 16, 2019 19:28:16 GMT
Have you been hit in the past?
I wonder if it would help to reflect on the general idea of vulnerability and also physical vulnerability and go from there. It sounds like there is some part of you that feels unsafe. Maybe meditations on things like safety and your ability to take care of yourself would be helpful, or whatever you think may be represented by this fear.
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Post by epicgum on Feb 16, 2019 20:49:51 GMT
Have you been hit in the past? I wonder if it would help to reflect on the general idea of vulnerability and also physical vulnerability and go from there. It sounds like there is some part of you that feels unsafe. Maybe meditations on things like safety and your ability to take care of yourself would be helpful, or whatever you think may be represented by this fear. I think that I was spanked as a child by my parents and maybe hit, but not excessively. My parents in general were not "rough" or violent or even permissive of physical violence/roughhousing etc. Safety and ability to take care of myself I think are key...I'll try to focus on those themes when I am out and about. |
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Post by epicgum on Feb 16, 2019 20:52:14 GMT
Often when someone raises their hand at me, even just to wave, I flinch as though they are going to hit me. I just noticed this the other day when getting on the ferry and giving my ticket to the ticket man, and it happened several timed when my gf would raise a hand and I would flinch and back away expecting that she was going to hit me. (She never did, although she hit the bed and joked about hitting me once.) Can other FA's corroborate this? Any idea what kind of meditations/treatments could help me with this? I do this epic, but I have been struck a lot in my past. My fa does this too when we play fight. Oddly, I kind of wanted to be hit in a sexual context, although I never pursued it and probably in different places, but was very much alarmed at the idea of being hit otherwise. |
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Post by anne12 on Feb 17, 2019 4:01:39 GMT
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