Post by Deleted on May 26, 2019 10:44:34 GMT
So since I cut all contact. I've had strong urges to want to reconnect. Feeling like I'm the bad one and feeling I've over reacted to the situation.
I made contact quite a few times over the past two weeks. I've been ignored. I knew his going through something or just too busy. Cuz his Facebook activity has been very low. Usually his active posting a lot but over the two months his posted twice.
I tried to check in to ask how he is. Left a voicemail message but no reply.
I left a Facebook message and again got ignored.
I got so angry when I saw him posting stuff on a mutual friend's wall and liking other people's posts.
My first emotion was anger. I responded by texting him to inform I'm cutting all contact. You reject me over and over again. This is another friend his lost. I'm never contacting him again.
Then I started to calm down. Rang his work phone. It rang and rang.
Rang his personal phone but it was switched off.
I just want to establish contact to see if his okay? If only he had the decency to reply to say I'm okay. Everything is okay. Then I can get on with life.
But the more he ignores me. It presses me to want to contact with questions like how can you ignore me when we are supposed to be friends?
A simple acknowledgment would have been simple and my frustrations would have been prevented.
My anxiety has got me urging to leave it for a few days and then try phoning again. But I thought it's best just to leave it. Take a step back and get control over my thoughts.
How can we be friends if he doesn't reply or treats me like I'm nothing.
At least for closure just allow me to talk instead of constantly running away.
Then I think I'm being too clingy and needy. Then another part of me thinks dont be too hard on yourself.
I just cant believe how a person can be so cold and nasty.
This is why we argue so much. Instead of allowing us to talk and resolve the issues. He chooses to run away and bury his head in the sand. Holding resentful towards me.
Why make things so complicated and just talk it out? Frustrates me greatly. He tells me his not good with confrontation but this is not healthy.
I cant keep chasing him just to get a response. This is stupid.
I just want to be able to say my piece. Hopefully get some form of closure and then I can move on.
I made contact quite a few times over the past two weeks. I've been ignored. I knew his going through something or just too busy. Cuz his Facebook activity has been very low. Usually his active posting a lot but over the two months his posted twice.
I tried to check in to ask how he is. Left a voicemail message but no reply.
I left a Facebook message and again got ignored.
I got so angry when I saw him posting stuff on a mutual friend's wall and liking other people's posts.
My first emotion was anger. I responded by texting him to inform I'm cutting all contact. You reject me over and over again. This is another friend his lost. I'm never contacting him again.
Then I started to calm down. Rang his work phone. It rang and rang.
Rang his personal phone but it was switched off.
I just want to establish contact to see if his okay? If only he had the decency to reply to say I'm okay. Everything is okay. Then I can get on with life.
But the more he ignores me. It presses me to want to contact with questions like how can you ignore me when we are supposed to be friends?
A simple acknowledgment would have been simple and my frustrations would have been prevented.
My anxiety has got me urging to leave it for a few days and then try phoning again. But I thought it's best just to leave it. Take a step back and get control over my thoughts.
How can we be friends if he doesn't reply or treats me like I'm nothing.
At least for closure just allow me to talk instead of constantly running away.
Then I think I'm being too clingy and needy. Then another part of me thinks dont be too hard on yourself.
I just cant believe how a person can be so cold and nasty.
This is why we argue so much. Instead of allowing us to talk and resolve the issues. He chooses to run away and bury his head in the sand. Holding resentful towards me.
Why make things so complicated and just talk it out? Frustrates me greatly. He tells me his not good with confrontation but this is not healthy.
I cant keep chasing him just to get a response. This is stupid.
I just want to be able to say my piece. Hopefully get some form of closure and then I can move on.
