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Post by nyc718 on Aug 21, 2019 15:04:19 GMT
Please forgive my ignorance on this. I had written about my breakup with my FA boyfriend of over a year who ghosted me after an argument.
I've been reading through some of the posts and it seems that sex can be something that FAs have trouble with after time.
What confuses me is that my FA bf never had a problem with sex. We had very passionate and intense sexual chemistry the entire time, and in fact, it seems to have started to get even more intimate in the last two months.
Something interesting happened in the last couple of months though. He was someone who described himself as "vanilla", but I was definitely more adventurous. I was happy though with our sex life and never had a problem. In the last couple of months he seemed to have come out of some shell and got a little more adventurous, and even made a comment once "this is who I really am". It was kind of weird as it was definitely NOT who he had been the whole time before. I wonder if that was something that was triggering to him?
I am still just trying to understand him and us and what went down. I am moving forward as it is clear from him basically abandoning our relationship with zero closure that we are never getting back together, but I still have a need to understand as much as I can of his mindset. Thanks for any insight.
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Post by serenity on Aug 22, 2019 1:03:41 GMT
I'm sorry that he picked an argument and ghosted you, that's so awful after a year together I suppose the hard thing to face about deactivation, is its not always about Intimacy, it can also be cowardice . He may also have cheated on you, then picked an argument to make it about you, rather than experience shame for his disloyalty. Then ghosted to avoid facing any consequences. Because you don't know, its much better to let it go, heal.
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Post by nyc718 on Aug 22, 2019 3:06:02 GMT
I'm sorry that he picked an argument and ghosted you, that's so awful after a year together I suppose the hard thing to face about deactivation, is its not always about Intimacy, it can also be cowardice . He may also have cheated on you, then picked an argument to make it about you, rather than experience shame for his disloyalty. Then ghosted to avoid facing any consequences. Because you don't know, its much better to let it go, heal. Well to be fair, he didn't pick the argument, it started with me because I was upset about something. I had NO IDEA that he was FA or that even existed till after he ghosted me and I was looking things up and I saw that he fits most of what an FA is. Had I had any of this wisdom, my relationship with him would have made SO.MUCH.SENSE. Alas, it's not until after the fact that I am understanding how different his brain was working from mine the entire time. I had never been in a serious relationship with someone who just shut down like that - "deactivated". I am actively doing my best to let go, even though I am still trying to make sense of it all. The funny (?) thing is, he accidentally video called me on Whatsapp today. I didn't see it till afterwards, but I know it was an accident because it was in the middle of the work day. We never called each other during the middle of the workday, that's why I know it was an accident. I'm not sure if he is mortified that he did that, but whatever. I wouldn't have picked up if I had caught it anyway. No way I would speak to him in the middle of the day in my office. Thanks for the support <3
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