HSP and attatchmentstyles, males/females Jul 27, 2021 2:02:03 GMT via mobile
Post by krolle on Jul 27, 2021 2:02:03 GMT
Jul 26, 2021 21:13:05 GMT @introvert said:
Interesting! I've contemplated why, when I was younger, I was more social in terms of being out and about in noisy environments- the the answer honestly is that I DID drink when in social situations. I believe that sensitivity and general emotional malaise was why, and surely the alcohol did make this environments more tolerable on many levels.
With age, I had a family and went more into domestic life, less of the kinds of activities that I smoothed with alcohol- less "need" for alcohol... and then eventually found that a life of more solitude suited me very well. As I'm out and about more these days I've questioned how I could even stand it before, without all my ways of coping now (ear plugs, scarves, snacks, sunglasses lol! my sensory safeguards). I think this may be the answer. I'm still figuring stuff out around all that and sort of trying to reconcile the ways that HSP has impacted me. The positives and negatives.
I can concur. I use drink a lot to reduce the intensity of my sensitivity. Especially in social situations. Alcohol has a powerful effect on me. just one beer and I'm tipsy.
One reason I use alcohol strangely enough is to actually be able to feel things. I know its stereotypically used for people to numb so that sounds counterintuitive.
But one of the problems I'v been having for a couple of years now is complete lack of the ability to feel a lot of things. Including emotion.
In other threads we have discussed about exploring emotion and my problems with it. But since we talked last I have really tried to be mindful of what I feel in case I'm just not aware. But even being mindful... it's barely anything.
There's just about nothing going on inside. just empty. I struggle to feel joy, or even sadness or well....most things. I have noticed a lot of mostly disinterest and lack of motivation. Disinterest in food, many hobbies I used to do, being social, seeing something which my mind tells me should be strikingly beautiful. etc....and nothing...no opinion, no pleasure...just empty.
I realised after we talked about it, I intellectualize everything because I have no emotional feedback to most situations to be able call upon.
When I drink things come at least a little bit alive. I can cry, and I laugh more, and relax enough to be around people, music sounds ok and food seems appealing, and I want to hug everyone. It's very short lived. Maybe just an hour or 2. But relieving in the short term. luckily I usually stop at just a couple of drinks. But I still recognise it's not the healthiest coping mechanism.
I have theorized either major depression or some kind of PTSD on top of the HSP stuff.