If I could go back in time I would have not dated B

Thank you.  This is part of my healing....it is my personal journey.....it does not say that others need to look back on their relationships the same way.  The reason I said there was so much more to it is because the moment I “fell in love” with him (and please let me have those particular words because that is important to my healing journey) was the moment I lost the ability to see him authentically.  While I had recognized that I was way more into him, even before we dated, I did not take the self loving step of pulling back/guarding my heart and instead allowed myself to go through so much anxiety/hope and despair while trying to win and keep B, while he was simply enjoying the physical aspects of our relationship without any plans to make it anything more then just a fling (which only became truly clear once he broke up with me).  This is not about beating myself up as it is an acknowledgement that I did not choose the best course for me and if I could get a do over,  I would chose differently.  This is not about “regret”...this is about empowering myself by seeing the ramifications and seeing (perhaps for the first time) where my needs were not met.