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Post by faithopelove on Dec 17, 2019 1:31:15 GMT
Sorry, you went through this. You are looking at this completely the wrong way. You are bending yourself inside out to earn this man’s love and affection. Truth is, you lost it long ago and he doesn’t deserve you. He is a liar and a cheater who cannot be trusted. Attachment issues aside- why would you want to repair a relationship w a man who lies and is unfaithful to you? This has nothing to do with your AP- you were absolutely not too clingy or needy- if anything you were much too tolerant and accepting of his selfish and manipulative ways.
Take your focus off how you should have been better to him and recognize that he betrayed you. Let him go- you deserve better and can do better. Focus on your daughter and starting your life over without a man you could never trust. No second, third or 20th chances for him. Just move forward and recognize it’s better to find out about his true character now than another 10 years down the road.
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Post by amber on Dec 18, 2019 0:25:02 GMT
Having AP myself you have to continually ask yourself...if I stay with this person so I do not have to feel abandoned (ultimate fear) am I SELF abandoning? You are the only one that has to stay with you for the rest of your life, therefore, you must give the relationship with yourself first priority. I am going through a very painful breakup myself with an FA (this guy sounds FA to me) and it’s a constant battle with the thoughts of idealising him and wanting to get back with him, but I just breathe it through and remind myself “this is my attachment system being activated, this is not love”...I am also doing internal family systems therapy and Daniel browns three pillars of attachment theory. If you are interested I can send you a podcast with instructions on how to start doing internal reparenting, which as you can’t afford therapy, may help as it’s free. It’s basically reprogramming your internal model of parenting to change the way you view yourself and r/ships. Your mind can sometimes be the enemy here and you must not let it run you with the thoughts of the hopeful inner child , which is strongly AP and very very powerful and hard to overcome.
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Post by amber on Dec 18, 2019 0:33:09 GMT
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Post by annieb on Dec 25, 2019 23:10:17 GMT
It seems in the boards a good test is that first ER visit, when you really need the man and he shows you no empathy. That should have been red flag number three. Why are you still hanging in this relationship? You will not fix what is wrong with him and you will get perpetually more hurt. This is turning into masochism very quickly. Disengage from this man ASAP.
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