Post by Helsbells on Feb 17, 2020 16:10:37 GMT
Hi everyone. Just wanted to share a little bit of happiness after all the painful stuff I have gone thru the last few years.
I met a guy who works for the same company as I do a while ago.
I was still with my Fa then so liked him as a person and thought he seemed calm and very gentle.
Today he invited me onto his boat for coffee and a chat.
It was so lovely and I felt so at ease and my nervous system felt very chilled.
He was totally present and the conversation just flowed very easy.
He was in a ten year marriage and has twins.
He loves his kids very much and they stay with him every other weekend and evenings during school holidays.
He appears secure but its early days.
Happy if only a friendship comes of it, but it has made me realise how I really want a relationship with a present secure available man.
My ex fa was texting me daily and I believe wanted to get back on the merry go round. I was nearly falling for it again when I did call him out and say you do fuck around with my head, I was blocked again instantly.
I just thought, you know what, I know I'm not perfect but I cant be doing with all this blocking and in blocking childish stuff anymore. I wish him love but I'm done with that relationship now.
I met a guy who works for the same company as I do a while ago.
I was still with my Fa then so liked him as a person and thought he seemed calm and very gentle.
Today he invited me onto his boat for coffee and a chat.
It was so lovely and I felt so at ease and my nervous system felt very chilled.
He was totally present and the conversation just flowed very easy.
He was in a ten year marriage and has twins.
He loves his kids very much and they stay with him every other weekend and evenings during school holidays.
He appears secure but its early days.
Happy if only a friendship comes of it, but it has made me realise how I really want a relationship with a present secure available man.
My ex fa was texting me daily and I believe wanted to get back on the merry go round. I was nearly falling for it again when I did call him out and say you do fuck around with my head, I was blocked again instantly.
I just thought, you know what, I know I'm not perfect but I cant be doing with all this blocking and in blocking childish stuff anymore. I wish him love but I'm done with that relationship now.
