Ive been planning on leaving my partner for a long time but i always had a reason to wait and now that i dont have any ive finally found a house to rent . Ive been approved and am going to view it tommorow ( applications were online first due to covid ).
Im having a huge amount of anxiety now its actually real and im so upset and thinking maybe i havent given thing enough of a chance or that im too sensitive and over reacting to my partners behaviour.
I think in my head that this is probably a healthy choice . He is very dismissive, i feel like at times even abusive and narcissistic. Its not healthy for my son and my partners son to be around all this tension between us but its so hard . I dont know if im going to be able to go through with it . Its like part of me wants to and part of me doesnt .
@me Doubting is the ambivalents "super power". You can try to regulate with the watertank exercise. Resistance to change can prevent you from taking exactly the steps, that could give you the life ect, that you dream of. The known feels safe. You can use some of the tools in this thread. jebkinnisonforum.com/thread/2758/make-choise Pushing yourself out of the comfort zone can be scary, but you are taking responcibilty for your own and your childs life.
Thanks anne12. Ive read a lot of your posts and you share some really great information.
I had a quick look but i will try and do some of those exersizes . I keep thinking to myself that its just my attatchment acting up or that its triggering me but its so hard . Its the overthinking too , if i just try this one more thing that i can fix it or if i talk to him one more time in the right way but i know thats a typical thing for an ap to do as well .