Post by tnr9 on Jun 29, 2021 14:29:56 GMT
I am beginning to believe that a greater part of my relational issues have stemmed not from my attachment wounds…but more so from neurotransmitters that were out of balance. This explains why years, decades of therapy did not really move the needle much for me in terms of addressing obsessional, impulsive, addictive types of behaviors. This morning I experienced a solid 15 minutes of my old self where I received overwhelming messages of “danger” before the lexipro kicked in. This also explains why I would attach sooo very quickly in hopes that the relationship would alleviate these danger messages. I think my attachment wounding left me feeling that there was something wrong with “me” as opposed to something being out of balance…and that just added layers upon layers of guilt and shame where none was really appropriate. The ability to pause, to access reason, to focus at work, to enjoy being with others without feeling needy, the ability to look forward to trips instead of panicking over them…these are just a few things that the SSRI has provided to me. When my dad was diagnosed with Parkinson’s, he too was put on lexipro and I wonder if he also experienced some relief from symptoms he had experience for decades….I wonder if his neurotransmitters were also off balance and caused a lot of his impulsive decisions in his life.
