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Post by tnr9 on Nov 29, 2021 15:44:23 GMT
I was asked by another member why I did not acknowledge posts in the thread I created regarding my accident. As I sat here thinking about it…it occurred to me that I don’t want to acknowledge andreply because I don’t want to own that the accident happened. Since I cannot undo it, then my next strategy is just to try to avoid acknowledging it. I told a friend the other day that I was simply tired of adulting when she asked why I wasn’t really talking about the accident…but the fact is….my toolbox for dealing with these types of situations is clearly insufficient. And my depression has been rearing it’s head again and that makes the desire to avoid and to escape even greater. I know it was an accident…I know things like this happen all the time…but something deeper has been reawaken in the aftermath of it….something I just do not want to face, even if I am the one asking for help. So I apologize if I have been a bit flaky….just trying to sit in the middle of all of this and find my way back to accepting…1. It happened and I cannot ignore or distract my way out of it and 2. That this accident does not say anything about my worth as a person…because the depression makes that part so much harder to accept.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 29, 2021 16:07:05 GMT
Did you start a new thread to explain why you aren't replying to the original thread? Isn't that the same as replying to the original thread? Are you just making an announcement or do you wish to engage dialog?
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Post by annieb on Nov 29, 2021 17:46:13 GMT
tnr9 just so you know we don’t judge you for having to withdraw. Because we know you will come back guns blazing forging a new path. We’ve seen it before. When people say that recovery is not linear, this is what they mean. And sometimes falling back into old familiar patterns is inevitable. But I think every time we come back, we are a little further along. Just a little, but just enough.
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Post by tnr9 on Nov 29, 2021 19:00:28 GMT
Did you start a new thread to explain why you aren't replying to the original thread? Isn't that the same as replying to the original thread? Are you just making an announcement or do you wish to engage dialog? I saw a much broader topic emerging that was not specific to the accident….so I thought a new thread was better….plus…..a new thread in a sense allowed me to again avoid the old thread topic. This isn’t a logical way to handle things….but I seem to be all over the map. |
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Post by tnr9 on Nov 29, 2021 19:03:49 GMT
tnr9 just so you know we don’t judge you for having to withdraw. Because we know you will come back guns blazing forging a new path. We’ve seen it before. When people say that recovery is not linear, this is what they mean. And sometimes falling back into old familiar patterns is inevitable. But I think every time we come back, we are a little further along. Just a little, but just enough. Thank you for understanding. |
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Post by krolle on Nov 30, 2021 14:35:06 GMT
Did you start a new thread to explain why you aren't replying to the original thread? Isn't that the same as replying to the original thread? Are you just making an announcement or do you wish to engage dialog? I saw a much broader topic emerging that was not specific to the accident….so I thought a new thread was better….plus…..a new thread in a sense allowed me to again avoid the old thread topic. This isn’t a logical way to handle things….but I seem to be all over the map. I admire the honesty. Especially the second part where you had to admit you felt the need to avoid the previous thread. It's human. And makes it easier to connect with you that you would admit this in quiet a simple and matter of fact way. |
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