Hi So i just hate myself because of my last relationship. It last about 4 month I was: - controling (i wanted to know where she is) - i want to spend time with her (more than 1-2 times a week) - i was jealous of other mens - i was showing our text messages to other - i was talking with other about our problems Everything was that way because i was thinkign im not good enough and what a girl like her is doing with garbage like me. Right now i hate myself for that break up (she breaks up with me twice once through text and i wasnt expecting that so i went crazy and i started talking with everybody from our work about our relationship). I know she has trust issues she was talking about them I just hate myself for everything ive done to her and feel like trash its been 5 months after break up and i still hate myself pretty much
I'm going to make an attempt to support you, but I have some questions for you in order to establish a sense of what you are looking for, what your background is in terms of psychological support and self awareness, and the kind of interactions we might be able to have here that could prove helpful to you, if you are interested in personal growth and healing.
First though, I would like to say that if you are only able at this time to express self hatred and regret, I am unable to offer you support. I am interested in participating in discussions that lead to enhanced coping skills, self awareness, and personal growth. If you aren't ready for that, I do sympathize but again point you toward professional, in person support.
So my question to begin is, are you willing to answer some questions and develop a working rapport in order to address your suffering with the aim of learning from it, and making progress toward healthier and gentler perspectives toward yourself? I will not respond to further expressions of self hatred and self abuse (referring to yourself as garbage, etc.). There is nothing constructive to be found in that conversation, and while I feel sympathy for your emotional state it is not appropriate for me to engage with you until you are able to approach this in another way.