Healing myself and practicing self love

To add to tnr9's suggestion about SE, do check out Peter Levine's books and talks. The way he understands and addresses trauma as a body experience was a game changer for me. There is also a podcast which I really like called "Therapists Uncensored". They talk about a number of things - interpersonal skills, mentalizing, attachment theory, how to go back to the sympathetic state when triggered. Really interesting and easy to understand talks. And of course, Thais Gibson's videos on emotional mastery(this is more from a cognitive perspective). Hope this helps!

I am going through something similar, I have posted about this recently. I have been going through a period of dramatically low self-esteem due to massive changes in my love and professional life, to the point that I don't recognize myself anymore (I used to be full of joy and energy...) and it feels like I have to rebuild myself from scratch. It's a huge job but you're not alone, and to be honest I'm realizing that I've been progressing even without fully being aware of it over time. I have tried to read "The Body Keeps the Score", it's brilliant and very interesting but honestly not very helpful in my everyday life. What is actually helping is the book "How to Be Single and Happy" by Jennifer Taitz. It's written by a psychotherapist and provides PRACTICAL TECHNIQUES using a mix of therapies (CBT among others) and meditation. This book is really helping me to learn how to love myself, which seemed such an abstract and obscure idea so far. While reading this book I've started practicing meditation on a daily basis (which I used to be pretty skeptical of) as well as the cognitive techniques she suggests to re-direct negative self-talk towards values instead of outcomes and to get out of the rumination trap. I've been feeling stuck for months and now I feel like I'm starting to regain some control on my life. Hope this helps.